Only a couple more hours separate me from spending the weekend with my baby.  This week has been one of the hardest ones yet, with tears shed every day.  I’m still not sure that I’m making the right decision, but I’m giving it a try.

The biggest obstacle is that Adelaide is refusing the bottle.  I literally tried 10 different varieties before buying this super fancy one that she took two sips out of and then refused.  Sippy cups worked for a minute, then they didn’t.  I’ve left work early because she wouldn’t eat.  We’ve thrown out whole bags of breastmilk that have gone bad because she refused to eat them.

I sit at work pumping milk and just cry, thinking I should be holding my baby instead of pumping milk into bottles she won’t take.

But today, it’s Friday.  I will spend the next two days snuggling my baby.

They never said it was easy.


  1. Aw that is so hard! Lots of moms know how you feel, you’re not alone! You’re a great mom!


  3. Sending you big huge hugs!!!

  4. Debbie Ball says:

    You speak from a Mom who loves and cares for her daughter so much! I’m so sorry Adelaide doesn’t want to take the bottle. That has to be heartbreaking since you know she needs to eat! Can they give her any cereal to help – a girl at work who just came back part time (her baby was born in April) is having the same problem with her daughter not wanting the bottle & the doctor told her to supplement with cereal. Does she take the bottle from anyone else … is the nanny just new for her and that could be the problem? My heart hurts for you & hopefully it will get better. It is so hard on a Mom’s heart to have to bear this!!! Hang in there sweetie! Love you! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

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